Endless Story...

{ Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I'm bored

Sitting in hall, stoning (even though my tutorial for my 1230 lesson is not completed XD). Haiz. hahas, so decided to blog. surprise surprise. looks like we'll have a yearly blog entry soon looking @ the rate this is going XDD. oh wells, it's finally 2009. We celebrated a nice new year's day and since then we haven't met T.T hahas

Argh. my family is now going thru a pre-financial crisis anxiety coz' of all the wonderful things the economy brought with it... urgh. *dies* argh well... that means i must avoid all the yummy expensive restaurants and only go there like once a mth or two or sth XD

oh and i highlighted my hair. :) so till then~

toodles

chibichan
12:20 PM

{ Thursday, September 18, 2008

heaven's place

wow, it's been a really long time since anyone has posted anything here huh? I bet you all forgot all about it! You naughty beibehs!

Well I admit, I probably have the lowest post count on this blog anyway. And here I am, on a very (early) early Thursday morning, contemplating things, not wanting to do anything much, needing sleep yet not giving myself enough, with my fingers hurting from playing my guitar for the first time in 2 months, yeah you get the gist. My eyes are burning too by the way and usually not in a very good way, unless I'm Cyclops, and even then, that isn't a good thing.

I was just skimming through the posts from an aeon back, looking back at what we wrote (or at least what you guys wrote, I was made of fail and often wrote one liner posts) and I was thinking, wow, what happened to all that? Well yeah, graduation happened and university and En Ass happened, but wow, suddenly it made me appreciate just how much we supported each other during the A level period. Well we needed it. All that emo-ing, angsting, pottering and whatnot was all finally over. And now we're at the door of the next challenge.

Well, three of us at least. An Ass seems to be a different situation altogether, so I guess it's not in my place to say.

Well what can I say? University life so far has been pretty hectic and rushed. Recess week for me is in another one week (and its fasting month, what kind of recess week is that man!?) and I have a feeling I'll be spending most of my day in school, cooped up in some corner of COM1, mugging my ass off. Not an ass. My ass. Different thing.

Somehow I just feel that the bunch of friends that I made during the Rag dance seem so different from me. We got along fine and we have good rapport, good enough for me to want to be a rag dancer next year as well. Even so, somehow, it just feels like I don't belong. The whole idea of cliques irritate me so much. I am a rag dancer, and that bumps me up in the senior's opinion. I'm almost expected to be the popular social butterfly people expect me to be and honestly, these days, I'm just not in a mood. I'd rather hang out with the lower profile people, but then again, they have their own cliques and even if I have friends there, since I'm with my "clique" all the time, that's where I will stay.

It's irritating me.

Just a little bit. The whole fixed and cooped atmosphere. The workload. The lecturers.

That.

And we need to go for a Swensen's trip one of these days. Soon.

When fasting is over.

sunny
1:17 AM

{ Sunday, December 2, 2007

so easily done, so difficult to reach...

So many things, that people take for granted.
So many things that is readily there.

Yet, how many people lack this opportunity?
How many people lack this ability?
How many people lack this... possibility?

Decided since birth, decided along the river of Life.

Consciously, unconsciously...

Did you know....?

Have you wondered....???

This very possibility...

This very existence...

Some things, better left unsaid...
Some things, dying to get out...

No one to listen, no ears to whisper to...

No eyes that give pity...

No cure to be found...

An end...?

No... It will not...

Grinding and bumping, sores and lacerated skin...

Seeping blood, painting the path...

There...

This path is opened...
Along the dark marbled floor...
Cool, translucent...

This itch... beyond all measurements...

need for relief... need for freedom...

need for... contact...

sealed...

beyond never flowing water...

void lies...

silence reigns...

a darkened tree grows...

chaos ensues.

SeraphiChaos
12:46 AM

{ Monday, November 19, 2007

I'm bored

I'm bored.
A levels going to over soon, I abit heck care the last paper...

Damn sian, attempting to do Physics MCQ now... Later got tuition...-_-

Mugging is unhealthy, it makes you fat... You sit at home and mug and grab anything around you and eat it... There should be some health campaign against mugging-_-

Now I need to lose 7 kg, or commit suicide.

Ok, I pick losing 7 kg...

ARGH! I"M BORED!!!

I'm bored,fat, ugly, stupid, annoyed, and poor...

Let's try some positive thinking...

I'm horizontally blessed, free of activity, ...err... i can't think of anything else to substitute...
Even the MMORPGs now are boring...
Drawing is draining, cos I end up producing images that make me want to smash my screen.
And then I have prom...-_-

Stupid prom, have to rake my brains over what to wear... And I dunno what the rest wearing so I can't just jump straight into anything.

Oh, then must somehow think up a complex strategy to get my father to give me money...

And I want to work part time... And I want to work at Kino... But the requirement is to work minimum 6 months, which I cannot, cos I enlist in April.

Well, let's see what other life's problems I can dump here...

Hmm, dunno... Perhaps I should go for drawing classes or something... or Cging classes... I can't tell one colour from the other... which is very very bad...

Zzzzzzz.....

SeraphiChaos
3:30 PM

{ Sunday, November 11, 2007

truthfully, i've been staring at the create post page on blogger for about one hour and I honestly have no idea what to write. Hope the A levels haven't been that awful for you guys. It's alright people! Just another 2 more weeks of your life and whatever happens after that is going to be your own making! And Shino its ok. I screwed up Chem Paper 3. So remember when you screw up something, make up for it in another paper. XD Oh and this is going to sound SUPPAA corny but the path will reveal itself to you in due time.

I don't believe I just said that.

Oh and let's totally go out and party after the A's are over. Totally. But no one gets drunk. XDDD

sunny
10:39 AM

{ Thursday, November 8, 2007

=0

ouch. seems like there's a lot of worrying. =( naaah... it's okay... life is ALL about uncertainities. if that job is meant to be ours, it'll be. Otherwise, there WILL be another path for us to go. if we all start worrying so much about our future now, we'll look like our grandma or grandpa even before we reach our parents age XDD. Sighs, i'm not anticipating that day we get our results back. But the only thing i'm trying to achieve before we reach that day is to establish ourselves as an online shop thingy XD - so that i WILL feel accomplished no matter what the grades are. i dunno how enthusiastic you all are about the idea but i really wanna have a substantial part time business to earn extra cash + i'm cracking my heads on how to put us apart from the MANY other online shops. =) I think i went crazy after maths P2 looking at all sorts of online sites (and finally buying the white piano bag =.= unless it's Out of stock XD)

but till the end of a's. 22 nov for bio, 20 nov for phy, let's jia you. =D

but shino, at least you weren't late for a paper. ^^;; there was a girl late for maths P1 i think coz' she thought it was in the afternoon. dun feel down. keep your eyes on the prize - THE 6 MTHS OF FREEDOM! or work. =.= lol (but if u are into F&B, u can try to work at cosafe. XDD. esp shino since u r good in chinese and english XD. Let's find work together after A's- no matter how much u dun wanna go through it!!)

chibichan
10:00 PM

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sian

sigh. been long since i last came here. sorry guys.

haix. As havent been very good for me. the dumbest thing one could ever do is to mix up which paper at which time. n yes i m the idiot who tot maths was in the morning n bio was in the afternoon. realised tt i was wrong like 20mins before the exams? how smart i m.. SOB. totally freaked out la. haix but nothing much i can do even if i freak out. went to bio paper 2 with quite a lot of things not memorised. think i screwed up. SIGH.

it seems like u all have a goal in mind already. like wat u want do in future. but me.. i seriously dunno. at least u have a goal to work towards ovan.. u can try all ur best u can to achieve ur goal. but me.. i dun even know wat i'm working hard for. i took A lvls not knowing wat i want to achieve. i juz know tt i have to go into uni otherwise i will be like kenna killed by my parents? but wat issit tt i want to do to take wat course? i dun even noe. i'm quite jealous of those hu have a goal in mind. a lot of friends tell me they wanna be this be tt... blah blah blah.. they can see their future but mine is still buried in the darkness... SIGH.

today public holidays.. no where to go mug.. T.T at home now n definitely not mugging. die la. tink i'm addicted to facebooking. haha. very fun leh. oops. =) hate it when the lib is not open. i cant mug at home! SIGH

oh well.. all the best to all of u~ let's do the best we can! 22nd!! after 22nd!! then we can go PARTY!! haha. anyone has an post-As activity list out already? hahaha! good luck to all~ n dun mess up the times of ur exams like wat an idiot like me did. T.T

xiann
11:32 AM