Ah after a's, i've short term goals so far. yesterday, i got an insanely hot-tempered father breathing down my throat on the responsibilities of being the elder sister. now, i'm miserable and very angry as i apologised (had to even if i want or dun want to) and i sent myself for even further yelling. or nagging. watever. my sister has been an angel, coming in once in a while to tell me everyone loves me. =) maybe i'll just let her continue playing my maple story account for free hahas.
anyways, just wrote in my private journal horrible things. yet i feel bad that i dun feel bad for writing it. =,= what the heck? hahas. studying physics now. mugging mugging. but now i'm kinda determined to do my very best. why. i wonder. but hopefully we all managed to get it over with mostly if not all As.
I'm a horrible person to maintain contact with. When people ignore me, i tend to ignore then back. or dun bother asking about their well-beings from time to time. unless they mean alot to me. But even then, sometimes when i find such feelings not reciprocated, i tend to just ignore that person =.=... so usually those i maintain contact with is due to the fact they contacted me first and vice versa. lol.
i dun think the above paragraph made much sense. i'm still dreamy, my eyes hurts and it all botchy from all the crying. >x< ah which reminds me, i would need to buy contacts after a's. =) and start a part-time business so that at least can earn some petty cash to maintain my hobbies like sewing, and soon, knitting. =D anyone interested in joining me on this venture? XD.
better continue mugging. otherwise i won't be able to finish physics today. XD. ciao.
EDIT: i didn't wanna post another entry so i'm adding on.
WHOA! i just read an article and i'm majorly shock (okay i'm not XD) DUMBLEDORE IS GAY O.O as said by Ms J.K Rowlings herself O________O she must have been influenced by all the fanfictions out there lol! here's the article: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20071020/ap_on_en_ot/books_harry_potter
lol. after reading that, i felt better hahas. can smile now lol.