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{ Thursday, September 18, 2008

heaven's place

wow, it's been a really long time since anyone has posted anything here huh? I bet you all forgot all about it! You naughty beibehs!

Well I admit, I probably have the lowest post count on this blog anyway. And here I am, on a very (early) early Thursday morning, contemplating things, not wanting to do anything much, needing sleep yet not giving myself enough, with my fingers hurting from playing my guitar for the first time in 2 months, yeah you get the gist. My eyes are burning too by the way and usually not in a very good way, unless I'm Cyclops, and even then, that isn't a good thing.

I was just skimming through the posts from an aeon back, looking back at what we wrote (or at least what you guys wrote, I was made of fail and often wrote one liner posts) and I was thinking, wow, what happened to all that? Well yeah, graduation happened and university and En Ass happened, but wow, suddenly it made me appreciate just how much we supported each other during the A level period. Well we needed it. All that emo-ing, angsting, pottering and whatnot was all finally over. And now we're at the door of the next challenge.

Well, three of us at least. An Ass seems to be a different situation altogether, so I guess it's not in my place to say.

Well what can I say? University life so far has been pretty hectic and rushed. Recess week for me is in another one week (and its fasting month, what kind of recess week is that man!?) and I have a feeling I'll be spending most of my day in school, cooped up in some corner of COM1, mugging my ass off. Not an ass. My ass. Different thing.

Somehow I just feel that the bunch of friends that I made during the Rag dance seem so different from me. We got along fine and we have good rapport, good enough for me to want to be a rag dancer next year as well. Even so, somehow, it just feels like I don't belong. The whole idea of cliques irritate me so much. I am a rag dancer, and that bumps me up in the senior's opinion. I'm almost expected to be the popular social butterfly people expect me to be and honestly, these days, I'm just not in a mood. I'd rather hang out with the lower profile people, but then again, they have their own cliques and even if I have friends there, since I'm with my "clique" all the time, that's where I will stay.

It's irritating me.

Just a little bit. The whole fixed and cooped atmosphere. The workload. The lecturers.

That.

And we need to go for a Swensen's trip one of these days. Soon.

When fasting is over.

sunny
1:17 AM